Sing a Song

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps and I'm the only one and I walk alone
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone.....

--Green day --'Boulevard of Broken Dreams'

Amazing how there is a song or a poem to describe every feeling or thought..

Considering that i had only my sleek nokia phone with me while commuting in UK, be it for work or pleasure;) i could only seek the company of BBC radio 1 ( most times)..
Every time this song played, i just felt
'Lots to do, Lots to achieve..
By myself, On my own....
Want to be heard, Want to be found..
Happy to be alone, yet, a part of me is looking for company'

This is how i relate to it, although the singer/ writer may have felt something completely different!!

...Sunday Moments...

I have had one of the best Sundays in a very long time..woke up late, read my favourite section of the newspaper i.e. Sunday times Editorials, ate a sumptuous meal, took a nap, got all dressed up for a glitzy dance performance, felt those pre performance jitters where I thought I had forgotten all my dance steps, then actually danced on the tunes of ‘aaj ki raat’ under the starry skies with atleast 20 other couples on a stage perfectly set to enthral an audience of about 2500 people..!!
Enjoyed EVERY possible moment for the sheer pleasure of it!!
Not once did i think about my work( manic monday to be precise) or any other person known to me
Just a co-incidence that the article I read that very morning was about Enjoying the Moment……

I would recommend you read the entire bit coz im just putting up a few snippets
‘We live in a world with so many expectations and so much to accomplish. Financial well being, relationships that work or don’t work, looking good and to be everything society wants us to be…
We are so busy that we are never where we are in that moment.We are doing one task and thinking about the next one. We never take the time to be in the moment and enjoy the moment for just that. We are in our cars, talking on the phone and thinking about the meeting we have later that day…..
Be open to seeing and feeling what is going on around you and really appreciate the moment for whatever if offers. Let the world take care of itself for a while. You don’t always have to fix everything...’

Interesting, isn’t it? Drifted into my dreamland after reading the article. I honestly can appreciate what the author has to say coz I do find myself thinking about tons of things in one moment to the extent of not listening to people at times, stressing every now and then!!
I for one definitely need to work on finding that inner calm and peace!!

Can you remember the last time you laughed whole heartedly? Can you be stuck in a traffic jam for ages and not loose your calm? Have u ever sensed that you are breathing air..or should i say medidate? Do we readily appreciate other people rather than criticize? Can we wake up in the morning and say 'its a brand new day'?
Listen ..Observe..Feel..Think..
No ways should one compromise on work, but can we not spare a little time to indulge in some beautiful and simple things!!

Anycase. While I enjoy this moment writing a blog, I will leave some food for thought..
What do u think Sir Isaac Newton was doing when an apple fell on him? Was he enjoying the moment in its whole? Is it because he enjoyed the moment that Gravity struck him?

We will never know….:)

Home Coming..

A friend once told me, if you want to write, start thinking as to how you will begin because that is the most difficult part!
So true, even in respect to life…….
Once a start is made, you will reach your destination even if the journey is arduous, as long as you honestly want to make it !

It was only a year back I left home to make new ventures, wanting a lot more than what I was doing at that time. I longed to run away from all securities of my home because I wanted to grow and experience living on my own. And grow I did in ways I can’t put down in just one blog.

Initially everything appeared fantastic, then came a phase when I started comparing India to UK and missed everything in India from hearing the whirling sound of the fan or the honking of cars to absolute silence, from abundance of sunlight to practically none, from a land of govinda colours to just dull dark ones, from hearing about Manmohan Singh to Tony Blair and the FOOD for sure!!….BUT, little by little adapted to all of that and more. Adapted so well that I might just end up saying ‘please, thank you or sorry’ to a beggar:)

As I was to board the flight back home I started to wonder whether I would find myself a misfit at home..A silly, ridiculous thought for sure and I should be smacked for even thinking such a thing. Im glad that it was just a thought because it felt great as soon as I landed in Ahmedabad or should I say Gujjuland and Im Loving It;). It was overwhelming to see mom, dad and my brother at the airport after a year away from home. Inspite of a 20 hour travel and it being 3 in the morning all of us ended up chatting till the early hours of the morning..I woke up to sights, sounds and smells which are so much a part of me that no amount of time away can erase it!!

Right now I feel absolute BLISS sitting at my favourite place in the house drinking mom made cold coffee instead of a hot chocolate and eating a five star bar instead of a mars bar. I am still lost in my thoughts and there is lots to reflect on but my reasons for going away still exist infact there are a few more now.I still believe if you really want something the entire universe will conspire in giving it you.

Im just bracing myself for another year of trials and tribulations..and...there is no place better than HOME to do that...!!!!!